Hi,

I've had so many problems with people on the Internet, that I really cannot be bothered going online, except to listen to music on Last.fm and YouTube. I'm actually in the process of getting a lot of my accounts removed on certain websites, which is proving to be quite hard.

Anyway, my main problem as of late is that I seem to be getting the big "fuck you" from the world. Ever since I left school, all I've really done is go on forums and post and post. But I cannot get a girlfriend. I've even met girls offline, yet none of them liked me or cared about me.

Since 2006, I've suffered many instances where people would reply to my dating ad, spam me, say they like me, then cease contact altogether. Earlier this year, I had to go to a dental clinic because I was unregistered with an actual dentist. Then about a week or so later this girl called Lisa replied to my ad. She's a trainee nurse / army cadet.

Anyway, she said she was moving house, but she has logged into Bebo a lot. Now she's saying she had no intention of dating me. Make any sense to you? Nope!

Why reply to a dating ad then? And not just her, but anyone...

The police came to visit me because I was sending these suicide emails to schools in my city. I made people aware I am mentally ill, and I claim benefits for it. But it is also because I miss my ex-girlfriend. Therefore they said this is top priority and they will help me find my ex. The last time I saw her in person was back in 2005. It is a long shot, but who knows? In the state of mind I'm in, I don't know what is holding the glue together.

Sob.